1. |
walking (original cut)
03:21
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“Walking” *explicit
[VERSE 1]
caught up in the lights / cameras in my face
where did we go wrong / why’d you walk away?
I know I let you down / promised I would change
ain’t so simple now / what else can I say?
I’m down on my knees
I’m trying but I’m bound / by these things
[CHOURS]
sometimes at night I go walking
tracing the streets of this town
baby don’t cry we’re just talking
how you got me wondering how
how you could kiss me?
how you could hold me?
even with all you’ve come to know
about me
how could you love me?
how could you love me? yea
[VERSE 2]
why’d you slam the door? / Just let me explain
get your ass inside / come out from the rain
I gave to you my youth / put a price on that
how can I show you / I’d never take it back
CHORUS
I know I’ve messed up
I’m begging you don’t go / giving up
[BRIDGE]
so when I close my eyes tonight
I got to know you’re by my side
CHORUS
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2. |
pink champagne
04:36
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“Pink Champagne” *explicit
[VERSE 1]
now I can’t say for sure,
I would have died that day on the beach
vodka in a brown bag, “please no police”
these boys are takin’ care of me
woke up in a stranger’s bed
nah, “did we have sex?”
break in a cold sweat
follow the clothes I left, like breadcrumbs
to the back door
[CHORUS]
we were sipping pink champagne; pink champagne all nice
(glowing like a neon sign)
just tramps living for that wild goose chase; wild goose chase that’s right
(lighting up like the fourth of July)
so if you’re down to hang; down to hang that’s fine
(“everything will be alright”)
this life is ours to take; ours to take tonight
(if it feels good, it’s probably worth the lie)
and I; I’m sailing away
in the wake of that pink champagne
we’ll drink it down till we feel nothin
but pink champagne
[VERSE 2]
in those days I would black out daily
just to numb myself from all the crazy
even if for just temporary
these blogs are ripping me apart again
and I, wish that was of my bigger problems
glass half full? nah, maybe solve em’
glass now empty. pour a round
till we find a feeling worth living for
CHORUS
and I; I’m fading away
catch a wave to our sweet escape
in paradise may it always rain
that pink champagne
[BRIDGE]
so congratulations, you got to see just what you came for
but was it everything you thought it would be?
passively cheering on my decay?
watching me writhe as the vines of my own words strangled me tighter,
you like that dark and that ugly that I harbor?
I’ll raise this glass for you, Mother Fucker
CHORUS
[OUTRO]
and I, ain’t so young anymore
I’m so tired and sore
still this war, just keeps raging on inside me
and we, may not live through this storm
till our bodies wash up on shore
this storm, will keep raging on!
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3. |
Disciple
04:27
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“Disciple”
[VERSE 1]
Jesus be my daddy
father my light
waltz through my dreams
draped in white
like a child, like a child
I ain’t scared of dyin’,
when I’m livin’ this sick
I’ll be your loyal disciple,
‘till I get my fix
desire. desire.
[CHORUS]
come Mother Mary, bring me a song
it’s been a dark February
I’m just tryin’ to move on
I ain’t goin’ to Heaven
(if there ain’t no Heaven)
so (then) I’d like to live on in a song
song. song
[VERSE 2]
I used to have dreams
now they’ve grown up and died
first you carried my soul
out from the light
you were right. always right.
I feel a darkness
growin’ inside
a seed you planted in me
you knew that it would thrive
thrive.
[BRIDGE]
Mary bows her head
tell it once again
now I am just a man
but me and Jesus,
we we’re just friends
[OUTRO]
and now he’s dead
I pushed that thorny crown a little deeper in his head
I gripped that rosary
tied around his lifeless neck
Jesus, my final savior in the desert
I want to die in your arms tonight
I want the peace; I want the quiet I couldn’t find in this life
absolve me from the consciousness of every man that I touched
even the ones wise enough to scoff my love.
rape me, till I’m dead
rape me, until there’s no blood left
rape me, because that’s all you’ll get
I’ll just die happy to never hear your words again
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4. |
don't let the light in
04:11
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“Don’t Let the Light In”
[VERSE 1]
I’ve grown used to the plane rides
fresh linens on my king-size, baby
and sleepin’ alone
if I didn’t take a trick home
start drinking in the morning
new city, same story
always this club or that
won’t someone get me where my boys at?
before you came along
I never really saw
how empty I’d become
if you’ll just give me the chance
I’ll leave it in the past
and you’ll be my only one
[CHORUS]
we don’t have to go out just cause it’s Friday night
we can just stay here, do whatever you like
ditch the car downstairs
nobody has to know
we’ll turn the cell phones off, leave the radio on
and you’ll dance real slow, baby, please don’t stop
just take my hand, this night don’t have to end
if we don’t let the light in
[VERSE 2]
I’m only bein’ honest
because I really want this, baby
I’m comin’ clean
you gotta know that that’s hard for me
before you came along
I never really saw
how empty I’d become
if you’ll just give me the chance
I’m gonna be the man
the one you know I was
[BRIDGE]
and honestly, I think this whole you-and-me
could be somethin’ that just works out
so just stay with me
I’m living for your energy
and you, got me dreamin’ out loud
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5. |
safe & sound
03:57
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“Safe and Sound”
[VERSE 1]
I’m but a man; if even that
I’ve been tryin’ hard to reconcile
with where I’m at
but there you are; and here I stand
you take me in; you don’t let up
and you barely flinch through all the times
I said “I’ve had enough”
it’s who you are; And I’m a wreck
this life get’s heavy
I’m just not ready
[CHORUS]
just (so) keep your hands on my body
(keep your hands on my body)
need the warmth of your spotlight now
(make me feel like I know that you got me)
feel your rhythm inside me
(feel the pound of my heart grow steady)
let your walls come crumbling down
cause baby we are safe
we’re safe and sound;
so keep your hands on my body
(keep your hands on my body)
man you’re skin so electric now
(make me feel like I know that you got me)
ignite your rhythm inside me
(feel the pound of my heart grow steady)
let your walls come crumblin’ down
cause baby we are safe;
we’re safe and sound
[VERSE 2]
I know that I; have let you down
I was a fool back then
but I am doin’ better now
give me the chance; to be the man
I know I could be
you know I would be
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6. |
aint it somethin
05:05
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“Ain’t it Somethin’”
[VERSE 1]
you walked in with that grin
as if proud of the job you did
hiding that southern accent
but I know a ‘good-ole’-boy’
when I see him
you sat next to me, tight jeans
and suggest I pour another drink,
“no chase, just straight
and just like that it didn’t feel so late
you said you noticed me before
so to hide my grin, I drank some more
and used that excuse
to move close in on you
[CHORUS]
oh oh oh, ain’t it somethin’?
you so lovely
you’re Oh so lovely
ooh ooh ooh, I feel you’re heart beat
there’s no denying
you know,
life is hard and dark and heavy
but it don’t have to feel so empty
[VERSE 2]
we get up to his room
wishing secretly, it was just us two
I wish he’d go back to bed
but then it’s one more hit
and we’re all spent
I’m not sure if I’m awake
when I feel your arms around my waist
but I smile just the same
I never want to leave this state
but some point in that blissful place
I’m ‘woken’ by the worst headache
just to realize you’re gone
now how do I just move on?
[BRIDGE]
and you don’t even have to try
just one look in those big gray eyes
and I’m lost for days
will I see you again?
no, this can’t be all we had
you walked in with that grin
as if proud of the job you did
hiding that southern accent
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7. |
not the end of me
05:01
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“Not the End of Me”
[VERSE 1]
so how’s that empty space
on my side of your bed?
I’m sure by now
you found some boy to fill it with
though it seems right now
this is all I’ve ever known
yeah I’m always sinkin’ slowly
like a stone in the sea
[VERSE 2]
yeah I know loneliness
like an old friend
he come around,
we share a cigarette
that’s not to say
you haven’t an effect
but if I had a heart to start with
you have torn all I had left
[CHORUS]
(so I say); I have walked through your fire
I’ve been burned by desire
I‘ve loved the ‘enemy’
and you; may always have that piece of my heart
and what’s left of me is all torn apart
but it’s not the end of me
no it’s not the end of me, no, no
[VERSE 3]
in my reflection, I find my father’s face
and it makes me shudder,
will I always be this way?
no, maybe some day, I will face what I’m afraid of
learn to love what I am made of
maybe someday
[OUTRO]
maybe some day
I will face what I’m afraid of
learn to love what I am made of
maybe someday…
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8. |
anti hero
04:55
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“Anti-Hero” *explicit
[VERSE 1}
I keep my blinders on tonight
won’t know where we’re goin’
where we’re goin’
the way her cold hands felt in mine
reminds me I’m still broken
rips me open
she died before we made it to the hospital
I held my mother’s body as she cried
all my life she felt so tall and powerful
but now I was the rock which she relied
[CHORUS]
after all the this time
what a fool I was to think we still had time
when we still had time
in all my life
what a fool I was to think we still had time
but we still have time
there’s still time
[VERSE 2]
I was just a child
her love was like the ocean
like the ocean:
and dark and infinite,
cold but ever flowin’
still I’m frozen
ignorance had always been a luxury
but you can’t go back to blindness now with all you’ve seen
and who am I without a man to comfort me?
I guess after all these years, perhaps we’ll finally see
in all this time
[OUTRO]
so don’t you cry, not for me
I ain’t the Anti-Hero of this story
I force a smile cause I’m that kind of sleaze
just a ghost of a man who I wanted to be
so don’t you cry, not for me
just let me lie, closed blinds through the morning
upon a time, was a boy with a dream
now I’m so fuckin’ high
I think I’m starting to see
so don’t you cry, not for me
I’m just a boy who had too much to drink
no, I won’t die
I’m too scared, I’m too weak
still I flirt with that darkness
closing in on me
so don’t you cry, not for me
I lost it all, there ain’t nothin’ to see
I’m in a hell I made special for me
now I’m so high
I think I’m starting to see
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9. |
good to see you
04:26
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“Good to See You”
[VERSE 1}
it’s funny how these things do go
a stranger’s bed becomes your home
he takes you in and holds you tight
and for a moment, you’re gonna be alright
it’s funny how you find yourself
when you’re getting lost in someone else
if all I know is what I’ve found
this stranger, he won’t stick around
ain’t it strange?
we are changed
[CHORUS]
but it’s good to see you getting on your way
I have walked across the universe
but I never left this place
and I’m still trapped inside this broken life
this one that I have made
but it’s good to see you getting on your way
friend, it’s good to see you
[Verse 2]
it’s funny how I’ve pushed away
anyone who’s ever gave
a damn about this boy inside
he’s getting weaker all the time
“help me! touch me!” he would say
but those walls around him never gave
taller, stronger they became
till all the rest just rots away
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10. |
all I want
04:36
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“All I Want” *explicit
[VERSE 1]
come on now,
just put your shirt back on,
or don’t
your skin in that dim light
oh no, no, no, no
what am I saying?
don’t you have a boyfriend?
oh, but of course,
he’s out of town again
at least he took the cold with
always on the go, go go go
but you keep lookin’ at me like that
and It’s got me thinkin’
what you even doin’ with a boy like that?
does he know you’re up to no good?
what you even sayin’? Yeah I want it bad
yeah we shouldn’t, but we probably could
[CHOURS]
cause you’re all I want, all I want, all I want, all I want, all I want
all I want is you, you
you’re all I want, all I want, all I want, all I want, all I want
all I want is you
[VERSE 2]
an’ I don’t want to be that guy
yet here we go around this time
oh baby, no, no no no
does he even give those thighs
the time that they so deserve?
cause when you walk on by
oh I can’t control my eyes
you’re fuckin’ perfect to me
what you even doin’ with a boy like that?
does he know you’re up to no good? (all I want)
what you even sayin’? Yeah I want it bad
yeah we shouldn’t, but we probably could (all I want)
[BRIDGE]
so baby don’t you go
I won’t spend another night alone
without you
and we can take it slow
I’m gonna make you feel right at home
beside you
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11. |
you or the music
04:03
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“You or the Music”
[VERSE 1]
I’ve been hiding in the quiet
scared what might be born
from the silence on those long drives
you ask me if I’m yours
and still you stand beside me
while I hesitate a second more
there’s no excuse for that
and still you come on back
[VERSE 2]
It’s there I see your mercy
like open heaven doors
I’m a runaway train, you’re an airplane
you touch down on my core
I don’t know if there’s a heaven
but you make me pretty sure
you’re my angel
I know we’re going through hell
[CHORUS}
so please don’t make me choose between you and the music
I’m scared of who might win
I’ve been fighting a long time
life ain’t been so kind to me
I just might be giving in
I ain’t afraid to jump, I ain’t afraid to bleed
I’m just scared to death of what you do to me
you’re my own damn fault
so please tell me it’s not
you or the Music
You or the music
[VERSE 3]
I know I’m far from perfect
but I like to think that I’m an honest guy
you’ll say it’s by intention
but I know it’s cause I’m bad a lying’
you say that it’s like watching
you’re heart walking around outside your body
but here’s the truth:
I’m all for you
CHORUS
[BRIDGE]
You have a choice now, you should get out while you can
through all this history, there’s still so much mystery left in here
just run while you can, run!
so please don’t make me choose between you and the music
Cause we both know who’d win
I’ve been fighting a long time
life ain’t been so kind to me
I just might be giving in
I ain’t afraid to jump, I ain’t afraid to bleed
I’m just scared to death of what you do to me
you’re my own damn fault
so please tell me it’s not
you or the Music
You or the music
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12. |
can't go back
04:44
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“Can’t Go Back”
[VERSE 1]
hold me
talk real slowly
let your words
touch the deepest part of me
a little laughter
but I’d never go back there
she’s a disaster
the pain’s too much for me
so hold me in close
cause without that sensation
I’m scared I’m a ghost
a life
unrested
[CHOURS]
but you can’t go back
I’ve tried
I’ve been running from my mind
and I’m sure
that my lies will do you
alright
[VERSE 2]
I don’t answer
she’s all so backwards
just like cancer
eating me away
Yet I love her
hell, she is my mother
she don’t see color
and I’m anything but gray
[OUTRO]
It’s gonna be alright, alright
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13. |
walking (radio cut)
03:27
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14. |
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15. |
ain't it somethin (demo)
04:19
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Steve Grand Chicago, Illinois
With over 17 Million views on YouTube, a #3 Album on The Billboard Independent Album Artist Charts, and one of the most
successful Music Kickstarter campaigns ever under his belt, Steve Grand has not just broken the rules, but has changed the game when it comes to being a successful singer-songwriter in the era of YouTube and Spotify.
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